• алсааас [she/they]@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    It doesn’t make me lucky. Just means my closer family is full of Russian nationalists (read: my grandparents like Putin because of the Soviet nostalgia mumbo jumbo Russian state ideology is partially made of and my father despite of it LOL) and an apolitical mom.

    Also I was born and raised in Germany (early 2000s), which materially is privileged, but the political landscape and climate here makes me wanna KMS NGL). Was also raised with OFC watching the victory day parade and Putins new years speeches KEK.

    The only good thing my father taught me politically was a fiery and passionate hate of the USA 🫡

    + it doesn’t make any of your positions more or less valid

    Edit: oh and generational trauma from the GPW 😁 (and of the collapse). My great grandma specifically somehow survived one of the targeted genocides and largest sieges in modern history (Leningrad), she did a good chunk of raising my mom and is the reason why my grandma (mothers side), mom and finally I have shitty dry skin /lh

    (At least that’s the family theory that she caught something during the siege and then passed that symptom on or smth)

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      The “generational trauma” thing is very real, I talk with people who grew up where I am and whose parents did too and they don’t know shit about what’s like coming from a 3rd or 2nd world background. Which is not a condemnation of them, but sometimes it gets gross, like a partner made some comment about wishing their family’s history was as cool as mine because it produced a very interesting person (me), and I got kind of upset because it’s a history of suffering due to the west’s colonial actions, and between intergenerational trauma and firsthand trauma I and my siblings are utter wrecks of humans in ways that we wouldn’t have been had we been white westerners. Sure there’d be other problems, but I would trade for those problems.

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        I was lucky to have the privilige to have no material wants, but the cultural and psychological shocks of Soviet history I did still feel.

        Those scars are not cool and quirky, I personally don’t know if I would get rid of them, they are part of me, of what defines me.
        But I would swap my parents NGL (though a lot of the issues they have are personal, IDK in how large a part due to their history).

        It’s still hard to fathom that my (technically step-) grandpa was born during the war, played in collapsed ruins as a child and still remembers having had to eat acorns or rather bread made of acorn flour to get by (despite his family being relatively well off for the times); I can’t even properly process that…

        Edit: I’m also sorry for your personal history having been plagued by colonialism, I can’t even imagine what that baggage must be like, sorry… :/