I wonder if I should take a break, this conflict has me burned out unlike anything else. Watching fucking ghouls you thought were friends and family nod along to a fucking genocide, seeing the live gaslighting by the western press, and the horrible shit being done to the Palestinians by the settler zionists…

Im too angry to function sometimes, I got so angry yesterday I spent it sobbing and calming myself with friends and that weird fucker db0. Ukraine was fucking nuts, but this is so fucking… GAH

Victory for Palestine is inevitable, and Palestine has struck the largest blow to fascism in decades, but seeing the videos of their people slaughtered in the dozens by uncaring fascist monsters is unbearable. Every fucking day I feel more and more fucking useless. I try to make up for it by working with the people around me, agitating, protesting, and uh… things of a very very very legal nature but then I check online and Israel is justifying reducing another hostpital full of so many people to ash and soulless settler scum eating it up like candy its fucking EVIL!

Fuck it all, its so fucking paralyzing. I hope that when the time comes for the USA, there is little mercy, they deserve nothing. They lie with every breath, the most ridiculous lies, and they swallow it without a thought. I can’t explain it except willful ignorance and actively siding with the regime while knowing its all lies. Both deserve punishment.

One reason I will stay a Marxist Leninist is to make every worst nightmare of the US come true. They deserve to see a hammer and sickle defile their settler state, they deserve to see the global south wave the flag of Lenin and Stalin, they deserve to fall in the most humiliating and total way. They feared the Soviet Union with every bone in their body, so I stand with the Soviet Union, dead or not.

Communists are too nice, they give these settler snakes a second chance they do not deserve. I do not joke when I say that any of their resistance should be met with the harshest repression. They don’t deserve communism, they deserve the nightmare. But we’re too good, its not right to do that. The villians will get away in some form, and they will kill us.

I don’t know if I should leave or not, im so tired, but I have little like this place. The only place I am a Her, where I am Me, where people know who I am and don’t think it of me as a disgusting thing.

Im being far too dramatic, and I haven’t eaten in like the last day and a half. I just need to find some food and I’ll be fine.