I’d say im reasonably attractive, fit, and good at casual conversation(i dont think these things but thats probably just the depression making me be down on myself)…

BUT everytime… litterally every single time i ask someone out, I shove my foot in my mouth so hard I feel like i need to apologize for how awkward it is… It kind of hurts. Not them saying no, but the fact that I know if i didnt have a crush on the person I could do it without batting an eye.

Aswell as the fact that i live in the country but am also surrounded by hallow capitalist suburbia, that doesnt offer many opportunities to make any sort of meaningful connection with people.

But In the end as long as I keep going ill keep trying, and maybe ill get lucky or already have a close enough connection to were it wont matter.