I read it more as “I reject your theory”. A lot of times I feel the communist side push theory in a cult like propaganda manner to silence other opinions and ignoring the human element. Not to say theory doesn’t have its place, but it shouldn’t be revered as a religion. I don’t mind communist memes, not a fan of ML/authleft memes though. But I’ve had leftymemes blocked since they lied about their rules, so I don’t know how bad it’s gotten.
Sometimes you need to trace yours steps to where you ideologically ended up.
I was a social democrat because I thought everyone should have access to education, healthcare, housing and a habitable environment.
I am a socialist because that model is utterly unsustainable in what is a clear class war.
Self reflection is hard