My problem is the straight men who put that they are open to dating trans men and swipe on me. Usually something like “women and trans men” in their profile.

If you want to date a man, you are not a straight men. You are bi or gay. Trans men are not here for your tomboy fetish.

Two of them. The older brother had been killed by god for being “wicked.”

his brother’s widow

Tamar is an interesting character in her own right, and worthy of being named.

After this, she’s supposed to marry Judah’s (Onna’s dad’s) third son, but considering he just lost two, he doesn’t want it to go through. He sends her home to her parents and blows her off when she asks when the marriage is going to happen. (The Bible has a lot of verses about leaving parts of your field unharvested for widows. Not having a husband = hellish poverty.)

She eventually gets fed up with this, disguises herself as a temple prostitute, Judah shows up, has sex with her, and gives her a family emblem as an IOU.

Later, she ends up pregnant, so the village elders drag her before Judah for punishment (he’s her father-in-law still technically.) They are going to put her to death, and Judah asks her who knocked her up. She produces his family emblem, and he has to be “well, you got me, I guess I have to take care of you.

“it gets leaked” - eg, someone posts it as revenge porn, which is the case for a lot of sex tapes being “leaked”?

Something about this meme just feels like it’s trivializing sex crimes.

Drugs are pretty nice. Staying up late getting stoned and drinking helps reset my brain. I can even trick myself into cleaning when stoned.

Was doing the therapy thing, but it was so expensive. Also not any good really. CBT is the opposite of ineffective for rumination, at least for me, and for some reason a thorough, researched explanation on my opposition to CBT has never convinced any practitioner to not eventually suggest it/pressure me into it.

I am hoping to save enough to move to another state by August. Part of the maintaining the multiple jobs. Moving is just so expensive. Getting my certifications transferred was a couple hundred dollars alone. Hundred on another test too. I just need to find a job over there and figure out how to move over there. It’s just terrifying leaving my guaranteed side work, having to rebuild a loyal client base, just to make sure I always have a way to get more money in a pinch.

The president nixed the SAVE act, and my state made it illegal for trannies to be teachers.

I cannot budget around paying for a degree for a job that they decided I wouldn’t be allowed to have after I graduated.

I darn my socks and clothes instead of throwing them away. I don’t eat out unless it’s something like pizza and it can be ate over several days. I don’t go out - don’t go to events.

It’s great that you have never had to struggle, but you are making a shit ton of assumptions with zero knowledge.

My apartment has two rooms. One is a storage room, the other is the living room/bedroom. TV (a computer monitor hooked up to a PlayStation 4 for YouTube) is right in front of the pile of blankets and pillows where I sleep, and is on 24/7.

What really pisses me off is that I played Bibi in a real world tactics game at a convention five or so years ago. I did exactly what he has done, like I was spot on in predicted what he did. Escalate genocide in Gaza, cultivate connections with the extreme alt right in the US…

But they tried him/me for all of the financial crimes almost immediately and booted me from office and banned him/me from running or holding office again.

Like clearly something about his strategies are working?

“Obscenity” is kinda meaningless when you have a president that raped children.

Bit more complicated than that.

It’s not one-to-one, and the Romans didn’t just adopt Greek gods.

stay there for decades

Yeah. I read that book 20 years ago, and I can still vividly remember someone microwaving some meat and discovering that it was their own ass cheek, or a cis woman being accused of being trans and being sexually assaulted, someone falling into a spring at Yosemite, and of course, “Guts.”

He has a schtick with memorable twists, similar to Fight Club. I think Choke was the only novel of his I remember not really having a giant record scratch moment - Lullaby, Invisible Monsters, etc have huge twists. Like discovering the orgy heaven at the end of Haunted which really just serves to punch you in the gut - absolutely all of the fucked up things that the characters were doing to try to be famous was absolutely pointless, because everyone on Earth is killing themselves anyways.

The only fiction authors I can think of that have given me the same level of intense shock and revulsion would be Ágota Kristóf with the Notebook trilogy (which is spectacular and everyone should read) and Samuel Delany’s Hogg (which no one should read under any circumstances.)

The short story collection/sorta novel Haunted by Pahlanuik ends with the discovery that the planet Venus (I think? Might have been Jupiter) is essentially an eternal awesome orgy heaven, which everyone will eventually end up reincarnating on when they die. So everyone on earth essentially decides to kill themselves. Stores have to start locking up suicide kits because people will just take them in the store and die before paying.

That entire thing is fucked up. I read it somewhere around sophomore year of high school and existentially traumatized me. There are stories in there that somehow 4chan shock image level in just written words.

FATAL lets you generate a character with negative health that dies instantly. It’s funny to imagine someone popping into existence and then immediately realizing the setting and offing themselves.

How many of them aren’t alive that we don’t know of though?

The context is big here:

Gradually, the social and cultural imperialism that the missionaries brought to the islands developed into the exploitative commercial power that overthrew the Hawaiian monarchy in 1893.

There’s also an obsession with the Battle of Tours. “Catholic” to them is more the idea of white heritage.

There’s an evolving strain of US Catholicism, exemplified by weirdos like JD Vance, who like the aesthetic of Catholicism (especially the Deus Vult thing) without really caring about any of the actual Catholic beliefs. It’s more like they have a childish misunderstanding of Catholicism as just being a more serious Christian. Which is not uncommon a misunderstanding in the south/Midwest, oddly enough - the desire for fundies to create a coalition to fight abortion in the 70’s/80’s really ended a lot of the more typical anti-Catholicism of the south.

Similar to the “American Orthodox,” which is the same idea with more of a Russian flavor.

Religious hospitals in the US have certainly historically had problems reproductive health care. But they by and large exist to provide medical services. I imagine far less than 1% of a typical “St Such and Such’s” daily operations are telling women than abortion will cause them to have breast cancer.

Ectopic pregnancy is also one of those things that was until recently understood to be “yeah that doesn’t count as pregnancy and you shouldn’t die because of it” as an objective fact. I know a hardline pro lifer who had an abortion for because it’s not viable and you die.

These are things ran by small, local, powerful churches. These fucked ideologies are the type that are preached by the pastors some of the highest up in the nation - the congregations and preachers that states like Texas Oklahoma and Arkansas exist around.

It’s a warped death cult that wants more soldiers in its war against the world, which it calls Satan. Fundie evangelicals hate sex, music, dancing, art, and most pop culture, to the point where they need to publicly acknowledge they are Christian ™ every 20 minutes.

They make their own history textbooks, tv shows, etc, etc, which is justified under the idea of being not worldly, but all of it is bad and only exists to reinforce specific messages to them. all of it is obnoxiously polemical in a way the gamergate crowd always pretended the Last of Us Two was.

But to practically answer your question - services that solely provide pregnancy counseling that don’t explicitly offer abortion as an option are bad. Abortion is a standard part of reproductive healthcare, and if you are going to someone specializing in reproductive healthcare they should be frank with you about it.

The “how are the motives of the people running these facilities different” part - St Such And Such’s wants to keep you alive by and large as its primary and professional goal. These crisis pregnancy centers exist to talk people out of abortion, first and foremost.

Then the male speaker spoke to the boys and girls together about stds and how if you have sex with one person then you’ve basically had sex with anyone they’ve had sex with, so you’ve basically fucked 1,000 people.

I was taught this in public school.

In the story I linked, they gave a woman an ultrasound and confirmed to her that it was an intrauterine pregnancy. That seems to be “practicing medicine” to me.

The question is did they actually know that it was ectopic and lied to her (because the religious right is doing a huge push right now to convince people that ectopic pregnancies are somehow survivable), or did they lie to her about the ultrasound, or did they just fuck it up entirely?

All three extremely disturbing, and probably all three happening daily at this evil places.